Hey Arnoldo

 So fuckin Arnold G is back in all his dubious glory. If he keeps this kind of shit up, he'll start getting subscriptions to gay porn mags and his name and address posted on every public forum as hot and bothered and looking for a punch in the fartbox. 

I stupidly moved the doll back to eBay to see if I could move its departure along a little faster because I need to clear this batch of merchandise out. One bid, not Arnold - good. Closing seconds of the auction, the cocksucker used a second account to circumvent my block on him and won it again, a single letter in his name was changed, now the fucker is Arnoldo. It's going on day 2, and he hasn't paid. 

I have an itchy finger to press that "second chance offer" button but I know damned well if I do, the fucker will pay and cause a litany of problems afterward. I told Charley that I should send 12 ounces of dogshit to him, and wait for the fireworks as he opens a case "What do you mean? The merchandise you ordered was delivered." Because dogshit is what he's about to order.

I also have to wonder at this point, just how many suicides eBay has caused in the past couple of years since MP started and they can implement holds at will. 

I am in New England. It gets pretty cold here in winter. I am broke, so I apply for fuel assistance, I am still waiting for approval 2 months after applying and you bet I qualify. eBay is decidedly NOT helpful. I'm on 1/8 of a tank and I've got the money to pay for some oil - ON FUCKING HOLD.

I sold a clock last week. It's going to fucking Italy. "On hold until January 19" There went that $110. They basically forced a refund to another Italy buyer on my birthday yesterday because if I wasn't a good doobie and  didn't "resolve" the case by today (meaning pay some asshole because the PO screwed up) then the buyer "could ask us to step in and you'll get a strike". We all know that a strike means more payment holds. So on my fucking birthday, I get to pay some asshole in Italy, who by now has GOT to know that her postal service sucks, because she opened a case last week ONE DAY after it was due to be delivered and played dumb and acted like she wanted "updates" How the fuck am I supposed to get hold of Italy Post lady? You know I can't. So there went that $50. I am sure that fucking doll will show up within a week, but I could not take the chance of her escalating and she damned well knew it. Now I am refusing to ship to Italy. No more. The last batch of stuff I listed all had an exclusion. 

Also yesterday, I got a buyer who bought 4 things ask to wait 4 days to pay because I have a doll she wants still for sale, and then to top off the shit sundae with a cherry, eBay slaps EVERY SINGLE THING I sold yesterday that actually got paid for with a payment hold. 

So I have over $300 on hold, again. And now I've gotta buy oil. I have ADHD, OCD and anxiety disorder. Most of time, I have it under control. But between eBay's antics and fuel assistance, it's too much for me to handle.

I have been having a panic attack pretty much upon waking today. When I have acute anxiety, it's hard to concentrate and get things done. I am like, frozen, for a lack of a better term - I guess we could say pun intended now too.